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Name: emily
Location: Ohio, United States
Birthday: 7/8/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: dance, going to starbucks, being scandalous, food, our boys, dancing in the car, mcdonalds happy meals, dance, music, techno waltzing, food, laughing, acting retarded with friends, going to the park in the middle of the night, dance, surprises, food, summer, and a lot of other things that i just cant think of at the moment
Expertise: dance...i guess...since thats all i ever have time for
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  twinkletoes1011
MSN: twinkletoes1011@aol.com
Member Since:
9/29/2005
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| i hate boys. there are only two guys that i am good friends with that have never surprised me in a bad way and both of their names are andrew. i dont understand where he is trying to go with this. was he honestly expecting me to run to him after all this? i honestly dont trust him. and really havent for a long time. and its for reasons like this. nothing every adds up with him. and everything is all shady. other people are better at picking up on it than me...or i take that back...i can pick up on it but i dont like to believe it until it smacks me in the face.
i just feel like crying. hanging out things are normal. someone on the outside wouldnt guess anything happened but then there is me screaming on the inside. ive lost something really important to me. i no longer feel comfortable around him...i just feel awkward and question every move i make and everything i say and it shouldnt have to be that way bc my feelings meant nothing like that. and it pisses me off that he took things into his own hands. talking about it made it seem things were more than they were. ive figured it out...its an attraction. not even a like. bc with a like you want something in return...with an attraction its just there.
he said he felt like he needed to protect me...but from what? so many things about that night dont add up. he keeps stuff from me that would be common knowledge to a best friend especially when they just had a deep conversation about stuff. but why. he wants the best for me but a lot of the time i feel like he gets confused between whats best for me/what i want and what he wants.
i dont know what to do anymore. the stuff with emily...its so ridiculous. and im caught in the middle...even worse than i could have imagined. i think i know what i want to do. and i think it will work out the best for everyone. maybe he will be able to move on and then i wont stress out as much.
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| so im done with xanga...on to my space! miss drew has gotten me interested...lol
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| i just want this weekend to be over...
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| why is it so hard for me to look past things? why do i let people affect me? why do i care?
well i dont anymore. bc the new emily doesnt let people affect her.
tomorrows or today rather is another day and i control my attitude.
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!@#$...lol
confused
clueless
wtf...lol
kiss
smooch...i dont think i have ever been like oh i dont wanna put a kissy face...lets put a smooch one haha